It’s almost been a 3 weeks since I started camming
can you believe that?
When I think back to my first few days logging on and off like a nervous wreck, I almost laugh.
I had no idea what I was doing I just knew I wanted to feel something again......
And wow… I’ve definitely felt a lot.

Confidence doubt excitement exhaustion all of it.
There were moments I froze moments I questioned everything and even a few that stung more than I expected. But you know what? Every single one of them taught me something....

This space has a way of holding up a mirror.
It shows you how you handle pressure how you react when people see you and what parts of yourself you’ve been hiding.
At first I thought I needed to perform confidence!!, perfect angles, perfect lighting and a perfect smile.
But it turns out people connect more when you’re real.
When you laugh mid-sentence when you are just a playful messy human.....

And somewhere between the chaos and connection i started to find my rhythm.
I have met some genuinely incredible people
The kind who remind you that there’s still kindness and chemistry out there, even in this wild little world....
But in those conversations and moments they’ve built me back up piece by piece....

I’ve realised something important about myself along this journey I love being looked after there’s a fire in me that lights up when someone genuinely wants to spoil me, appreciate me, and take care of me in a discreet, meaningful way.
It’s not about the money it’s about being valued, cherished, and respected for what I bring.

Owning that desire doesn’t make me less it makes me me.
Knowing what I want and allowing myself to want it gives me strength and confidence in ways I never expected.
It’s part of what fuels my energy, my presence, and the fire I bring to everything I do.

Do I still have wobbly days?
Of course. But now I walk in with a little more fire because I’ve realised my power doesn’t come from being perfect.
It comes from being authentic.
From owning what I need.
what I love.
and knowing what I deserve.

So here’s to my first month the lessons, the laughter, the late nights, the tiny heartbreaks, and the glow-up that came from them all.
I may have stumbled at the start, but babe, I’m standing tall now… in heels, in lace, and in my own lane.

Siren...x