Hello lovelies,

I hope you’re all doing well?

I thought I would finally get round to writing a new blog post, and what better way, than to share my latest obsession/ torture that I am currently inflicting on myself! Now I say torture, because currently I am getting no action at all sexually, there is sadly zero dick entering any orifice of my body, and since my abstinence I’ve gone down one hell of a rabbit hole!
So the said rabbit hole that I have gone down since Christmas time, is audiobooks, spicy ones in particular, dark romance books that are pretty unhinged and morally grey (or pitch black in the case of some), and that I cannot get enough of! In each book, I swear every single main male character I read about, are all a walking Adonis, super tall at 6ft4, 6ft5, 6ft6 or there abouts, extremely muscly with bodies that sound like a work of art, the epitome of the classic tall, dark and handsome, along with tanned skin, beautiful eyes, covered in tattoos, big hands [;)], and of course a monster cock! And they’re the ultimate fantasy, as they all know how to make a woman cum with their mouth, fingers (they know the technique and the correct come hither motion, while also circling the clit) and their dicks, and I am yet to ever meet a man that can make me cum in all three ways (yet)!! But I’m so jealous of the women in these books right now, as I am literally craving this, a man that can make me cum over and over again, in every way possible! In quite a few of the books that I’ve read, the women are literally begging the man to let her cum, as there is a healthy amount of edging and orgasm denial going on in some scenes, and I’d never really thought about having a man try and edge me before… In curtain books (particularly the LORDS series) they’ve got the women restrained in some way, whether that’s with your typical tie & tease equipment, hands cuffed behind their backs, or some other style of restraint, and then they get all kinds of toys out, to use in all of her holes (which has apparently inspired me to also add a vibrating butt plug to my wishlist too) to torture her with orgasm play, and some of these methods sound very interesting indeed, I’m stuck between wanting to experience it for myself, and also wanting to restrain a beautiful women myself so I can do this to her [;)]! I’d say it’s probably a 50/50 split in these books, between them edging her/ orgasm denial to the orgasm torture where they just make her cum over and over and over again till she is literally a soaking wet exhausted mess on the sheets! I mean, getting worn out from too many orgasms, sounds very appealing right now!

Can you tell I’m horny, and in serious need of getting a good fuck at some point in the near future [:|]!! But until then, I guess I will continue adding to my fantasy list.

Another scene that has also made me add another new toy to my wishlist (said toy is a remote control g spot vibrator, in case you were wondering, or possibly wanting to treat me [:)]) they go out for dinner together & he’s told her beforehand not to wear any underwear, which she complies [;)], after they’ve finished the meal, they walk to his car, and he asks if she trusts him, she says yes, so he turns her around & cuffs her hands behind her back, places her in the passenger seat, whispers in her ears to spread her legs, then slides a toy inside her already soaked pussy…… then he gets in to the car, starts driving, and presses the remote to turn it on, turning it up and up until she is writhing with uncontrollable pleasure and cumming hard (or squirting from memory of the book). Not sure I’m necessarily in to this happening in a car, but I’m tempted to try one of these toys and hand the control to someone else!

It’s been interesting exploring these books, as all of the men are of course very dominant, which isn’t something I would ever have thought I would want, or would necessarily enjoy playing with, as I’ve never really been one to enjoy been submissive ,but now guys, my interest has been piqued, my pussy has been soaked and I’m developing all kind of kinks that I think I need to give a try at least once, or maybe twice just for research purposes [:D]!
One of those kinks is definitely for a tall, muscly, tattooed man hiding his face with a mask, (which clearly my ig has clocked on to, as my algorithm is filled with faceless muscly men wearing scream masks or similar, and of course a few trying to replicate Josh from Lights out [:P] not that I mind the eye candy) and then there is a praise kink, specially after hearing Teddy Hamilton and Corvin King say “good girl” (apparently my new favourite phrase [:D]) too many times to count, that now it seemingly causes a visceral reaction within me. And then I think I can naturally fit in to the brat category, if that’s a kink of yours, and there are a few others than I’m curious about, but we shall see.
Do you have any particular kinks you enjoy or want to try?
It’s also been quite cute to see the husbands and partners who also benefit from their other half reading smut, as it definitely wets your appetite and is a form of foreplay in itself!

Another recurring theme with these dominant men, is them literally telling you to get down on your knees, open your pretty mouth and then take his cock down your throat, literally every last inch filling your mouth and throat, face fucking you until they cum in your mouth (or down your throat) and then you’re going to swallow every every last drop like a good little girl, and in one case he will even make you say “thank you” [:D]! And usually in normal every day life, sweet, little innocent me would be like, “no thank you, I’m not doing that, I don’t like that, it’s not for me” but in these books, I am literally sat here thinking,
hmmmm do I want that?
Would I like that?
Does this turn me on?
Do I want to be a good girl?
Am I developing a praise kink (umm yes, yes I definitely am)!
Also I’ve not done anything like that since my early twenties, back when I was a horny insatiable little thing, and while I’ve enjoyed been a vanilla princess, now I’m in my early thirties I’m honestly feeling like that desire and horniness is having a resurgence with a vengeance, and the need for some more spice is very alluring, very alluring indeed! Although it’s also very frustrating, as the only outlet I have currently is my toys, which is definitely not fulfilling all the desires I currently have!

So yes, I can definitely say that I am whole heartedly addicted to clitarture right now, and I should stop, because it is becoming torture while I am getting no action, but I can’t stop, won’t stop!

What is worse for me right now, is that I am clearly craving men that don’t exist or are so rare to come across in every day life! And as a woman in my early 30s now, I’ve never had a man be able to make me cum with their fingers alone, I’ve only ever met two that have got me close but not all the way there, I think their hands got tired [:-#]! So someone that can make me cum with their fingers, their mouth, and cock……. I mean, YES FUCKING PLEASE, but does it exist in the real world?
But back to the fingers for a moment, they clearly all seem to be using the correct motion to hit the g spot and then using their thumb to circle her clit, it’s actually quite hard to get your fingers to do the two different motions at once lol, but fair play if you’re a man or woman able to do this and manage to get a women’s pussy clamping down on your fingers as she genuinely cums! I need to learn this pleasure giving skill myself [;)], as I’m all about mutual pleasure and making a woman cum all over my fingers definitely sounds hot!

Another thing about the men in these books, they’re consistent, they’re putting in the work, they yearn for her, and are the epitome of “if he wanted to he would” & they all do, so I respect it [:D], they literally go to all lengths to get her pussy and get her soaking wet for them, when far to many men sadly in the real world are out here bread crumbing women, not knowing where the clit even is and breaking a sweat before they cum in two minutes [:|] [N]! Fictional men really are out here setting my standards to unrealistic heights [:)]

I’ve also noticed a pattern while reading each of these books, the first time they’re intimate in anyway, they’re not getting his cock straight away, they want to fuck him, they want his dick inside them, but no, you’ve got to wait!! You’ve gotta be a good girl and be patient, after all, good things “cum” to those who wait, and patience is rewarded in an abundance of orgasms in these books! So to start with, they always make her cum with their fingers first, which of course as per my earlier comments, I have massive respect for, and in my lifetime I do actually want to encounter a man that can do that to me! The next time he makes her come with his tongue and lips, and in one particular book also with teeth and biting her clit, which was a bit oooooooh intense sounding to say the least, specially as he did it in a painful way first, to punish her, and then in a more pleasurable way afterwards, so I have to respect it, as he got the job done. But the clit biting kink is not the one for me lol I don’t think I’ll be adding that one to my list, which is a blessing in disguise, because each time I read something new, I get intrigued to do some boots on the ground research! By the time he’s made her cum with his various oral skills, it’s usually at that point she’s gagging, yearning, wanting, needing that dick in one way or another, so this where there is some reciprocal oral given, although not the soft, slow, sensual kind of blow job, they’re literally having their throats and face fucked, then swallowing every drop of his cum or having their pretty faces or boobs covered, after which there is usually a bit of oral been swapped both ways, before we eventually get to the first fucking scene, and I will say, the first time a lot of them fuck in these books, the scenarios are “creative” and quite brutal to say the least [:-O], because of course all of these men are seemingly hung like Danny D or by the sounds of it they are!

And in pretty much every book I’ve read/listened to, these men have a infatuation about having to own every single hole lol, still not sure how I personally feel about that one, so I’ll not add anymore details, but a monster cock in the derrière doesn’t sound or look like it’s for the faint hearted!

And just in case you’re curious, as to what I’m currently reading/listening to- at the moment I’m listening to the Legacy of Gods series, I just finished God of ruin, which I honestly didn’t think I would like, as the MMC seemed like a right dick when he’s mentioned in the other books, which he is, but he’s also hilarious, so this surprisingly has been my favourite in the series, with two left to read! And the sex was good too, as it has been in all of them, although God of pain wasn’t quite for me, as I’m not a bdsm girly! I’ve now started God of war today, which so far is going down a bit of a different route to the others, so I’m intrigued!

Let’s finally move on to other subjects, now I’ve waffled on about my obsession and own personal torture porn (seen as there has been no in person action for what feels like a lifetime lol), but reading about dominant men, has inspired me to channel my own inner feisty side and bring back domination bookings! I’m very much in the mood for taking my frustrations out on a pathetic little worm of a man, I fancy ball busting, caning and inflicting humiliation on someone who is isn’t even worth of a second glance from me, I want you crawling on your knees, licking at my heels, and fuck it, I may even channel the energy from the books and have you crawl on your knees to me, and have you gag on the biggest strap on I can find… [:D]

Away from the filth for now, I finally got my aligners fitted a couple of weeks ago at the dentist, now I really underestimated the commitment these are before getting them, luckily my treatment plan is only 4 months long in total, as long as I’m “compliant” as my dentist told me with a smirk, clearly doesn’t know what a good girl I am these days [:D] But for anyone who has had these, how long did it take you to get used them? Because I’m only two and half weeks in and they keep annoying me, but I think that’s because I can’t enjoy my cappuccino or snacking whenever I want [:(]! Or when I go to say a sentence and the words don’t come out right, because I’m not used to having them in my mouth….

I’ve spoken a lot about the filth I’m reading and the men in them, but I do actually need to find a good FF book, but they seem quite rare though as I’ve not seen any recommendations for any (yet). But you all know how much I enjoy getting to play with a beautiful woman, and we are almost 5 months in to 2026 and I’m yet to have my tongue caressing a gorgeous soaking wet pussy……. Ironically we are now in Taurus season and if you don’t know I’m a Taurus through and through, May 19th is my birthday, and I feel like I need to indulge with at least 5 beautiful women to make up for not playing the first quarter of 2026, but for now I guess I’ll enjoy reminiscing on some of my favourite encounters with beautiful women (probably while using my Venus toy on my clit)! And top of my birthday wishlist is always pussy, followed by Honey birdette (Paloma, Nicole, Whitney baby pink set) & agent provocateur (Winette white, Callypso & Dioni red set), louboutin heels and I also would quite like some vouchers for Argos or curries as there is a certain device that I would like for my home. I’m also seriously missing getting wined and dined, and princess treatment in general!

I’m currently on the train down to London, and it’s Sod’s Law I manage to time it for when there is a tube strike, it’s like living in Mk all over again when half the time I’d be working in Euston it would be timed for when those annoying strikes would take place. Luckily I’m in London for personal plans and an appointment, so tying in a little bit of work between my personal plans works well for me even if it’s a quiet one. Plus it looks like it’s meant to be a beautiful sunny week, so I can enjoy walking round London with a matcha and a spot of shopping while I’m here too (which I’m always happy for someone else to sponsor)

Hope you all have a lovely week [:)]

Olivia xxxxxxxxx